I wake, but my eyes still feel like sleeping. Rubbing my eyes, I begin reading from Testimonies Volume 5. Suddenly I’m wide awake! The words are strong!
“Christ pleased not Himself.” He did nothing for Himself; His work was in behalf of fallen man. Selfishness stood abashed in His presence…Â He withheld nothing, not even His own honor and heavenly glory…
Christ’s interests and those of His followers should be one; but the world would judge that they are separate and distinct, for those who claim to be Christ’s pursue their own ends as eagerly, and waste their substance as selfishly, as nonprofessors. Worldly prosperity comes first; nothing is made equal to this. The cause of Christ must wait till they gather a certain portion for themselves. They must increase their gains at all hazards. Souls must perish without a knowledge of the truth. Of what value is a soul for whom Christ died in comparison with their gains, their merchandise, their houses and lands? Souls must wait till they get prepared to do something. God calls these servers of Mammon slothful and unfaithful servants, but Mammon boasts of them as among his most diligent and devoted servants. They sacrifice their Lord’s goods to ease and enjoyment. Self is their idol. {5T 204.3}
“Self is their idol”! Ouch! But I know it’s true… I’ve made self first too many times. I’ve made decisions based on what I wanted, instead of what God has asked of me… But she continues;
Doing nothing to bring souls to Jesus, who sacrificed everything to bring salvation within our reach! Selfishness is driving benevolence and the love of Christ from the church. Millions of the Lord’s money are squandered in the gratification of worldly lust, while His treasury is left empty. I know not how to present this matter before you as it was presented to me. Thousands of dollars are spent every year in gratifying pride of dress. That very means should be used in our missions. I was shown families who load their tables with almost every luxury and gratify almost every desire for fine clothes. They are engaged in a prosperous business, or are earning good wages, but nearly every dollar is expended upon themselves or their families. Is this imitating Christ? What burden do these feel to carefully economize and deny inclination that they may do more to advance the work of God on earth? Should Elder Andrews have the advantage of some of the means thus needlessly expended, it would be a great blessing to him and give him advantages which would prolong his life. The missionary work might be enlarged a hundredfold if there were more means to employ in carrying out larger plans. {5T 205.1}
It’s true… Perhaps we so often gratify self that we don’t even recognize it! How often have we gotten something trivial for ourselves, while God’s workers, especially those in foreign fields languish for want of resources to do His work?
Why is it so hard to live like Christ? Is it perhaps that we haven’t taken a close look? He pleased not Himself. He didn’t live for himself in a single part of His life. His life was a life of sacrifice, of service to others. Do we have the same experience? Are we willing to? Lord help us!